excuse me while i complain

this week has been terrible at work... i am so so so done... and yet... i got a paycheck today which reminded me... hey maybe you should  keep doing this. so tonight when i came home ready to crash into the weekend... and i had no plans for the night... i figured id take a little nap and wake up, make dinner, and hopefully go do something. instead i woke up two hours later to my niece running into my room asking if she can watch tv in my room and my mom chattering about the zoo tomorrow and do i want to wake up at 7 and go with them?  no no and no

im grumpy so im going to whine a little okay? if you dont want to read it skip to the asterisk 

now dont get me wrong i LOVE my niece but seriously... gtfo my room... go watch tv in the living room... its just as good as mine and you bug me less there... as for my mom... no i will NOT wake up at 7 am to go to the zoo for an hour... i dont care if there are monkeys playing in the snow its not worth less sleep than i get during the week when i have work

and then i became grumpy because i hadnt eaten... and because in that two hour naps... i had received nada... no text, no facebook messages, no calls... granted this shouldnt have surprised me... if i want to go out i generally have to get a group together and organize something... but seriously... couldnt for once someone invite ME to do something? okay this totally isnt fair because they do... but at the same time... idk i just feel like... im a second thought friend for some people like... you know that person? you hang out with them its cool you enjoy yourself... and if they call you up youll probably go out with them again... but when you are going to do something you dont think to call them up... yeah i think thats me... 

and on that note... ive noticed something... so my ex was/is kind of a huge ass and i discovered after we broke up that not a lot of people enjoy his company, especially after the break up when i wasnt there to mellow him out as much... anyways so... a lot of people didnt like him... so by dating him for the two years i went to this high school... i didnt get to hang out with a lot of people but now my friends that i had acquired despite dating him are introducing me to new people that are generally pretty cool... however... because i dont know them REALLY well... like enough to be facebook friends but not have their number, anyways so im having this small kickback/party/whatnot on friday... and i can invite my core group of like 6-7 and a couple of other people i sort of know at least well enough to invite them to a party... but then comes the question of inviting all the people that keep showing up at like... T2s parties... because a) i dont want to be super awkward like hey ive gotten drunk with you like twice come hang out at myhouse! and b) they are T2s friends and i dont wnt to seem like stalker girl so instead i sent out an email like heyyyy having a party invite people you think id like to the like 9-10 people that i feel like i can invite and hopefully other people will come

but not too many cause srsly i dont know how much alcohol i have/will need... 

also... so last night i went to dinner with M and her boy D and T1

really fun and then we saw kiss kiss bang bang at Ds house

and it rained really hard... stopped while we watched the movie and started up right as we stepped outside to drive home

but it really sucked because like... okay they arent SUPER couply like hand holdy and kissy kissy and pet names... but the little things like them arguing over who was paying for who's dinner... like her drawing on his back while talking to me... absentmindedly like its so second nature like she just has to be in contact with him in some small way....

i miss that... a lot

but i cant really begrudge her it because shes ilke the sweetest person you could EVER meet... shes so kind and like gorgeous and funny and smart and gah... i love that girl to pieces... *

the last like sentence wasnt grumbling but it doesnt make sense if you dont read the grumbling... 

however now that ive whined...  i dont really have much else to say... sorry for all you who didnt want to read this... its probably a tiny post for you guys... 

im gonna go watch the tudors again and stretch while i do it... i pulled something in my leg and it hurts like woah... and make tea and sleep and hopefully tomorrow, if plans dont fall through, go dancing with M and K

night lovelies

<3