boys boys boys

so last night i hung out with this friend of mine from high school... i explained to her the situation with S and T2 and she says that she fully supports my pursuing T2 and understands perfectly my liking both and wanting to pursue both... but she said that she really thinks if i just sit down and talk to T2 he would totally be chill about figuring out whats going on... So later she called me up again and was like hey wanna come over for a glass of wine... you invite T2 I'll invite S. So I invited T2 who was hanging out with a couple people and decided to stay in at their house instead of coming to hang out with us... understandable but this is like... the third time in a row he's not been able to hang out with me when i called... whatever it was like 1 am... 

so S came over and the three of us had a glass of wine and just hung out... the girl started to fall asleep so he and I went outside so he could try out her long board and try to teach me... for future reference, i can work heels, im slightly clumsy in flats, and im incapable of staying up right if im on anything with wheels... 

and then we went back inside and kept talking... now whether it was because it was now like 230 am or because the wine had gotten to me a little... i started rambling... and dropping a lot of things i really just didnt need to drop... like... my love of lingerie... and the fact that im getting a brazilian next week... and just all sorts of things that really i dont think S needed to know... i also explained, briefly the stint with L... and then S drove me home and i gave him a hug, climbed back through my window into my house... and realized all of the things i had said that night... and promptly texted to apologize. he said it was fine and that he didnt think i had talked a lot and blah blah blah

on the upside i kept everything with T2 under wraps and when S asked me who i liked i was able to skip around the question pretty well... granted so did he when I asked him right back... 

now... speaking of L... he's at it again... facebook friending all of MY friends... people he met only once or twice... he is now friends with K, T2, B, and one of my random guy friends... K and B are like two of my closest girl friends and hes met them both once... with me... now whatever he can friend who he wants... they all think its rather creepy of him but whatever... now the thing is that K wasn't going to just let L slide and not say anything... so... she started talking to him... saying something about him being a creeper and he made a comment about her being short... clearly thinking it was all some sort of joke... she then replied with "and I'm really not that short, I just have friends that are tall. and what does that even matter? Being short doesn't affect how I treat people. I'd rather be short than be a creeper." 

thank you K... im glad I have someone sticking up for me... even if he is just going to delete her, and the comments and probably write something rather mean to her... 

seriously i need to figure all of this out

luckily spending the night with S cleared up several things for me.

A) i DO like S... 

B) i like T2 more

C) i want to talk to T2 about this whole whatever is with us and be like okay so are we just benifriends? or do you actually like me? either way im cool i just need to know

D) i know who im going to dark knight with... S... he offered to accompany me last night when i mentioned that i wanted to go but didnt know who to go with...

granted... were going to the IMAX... which is also where T2 and HIS group are going.... and im still not positive how things will go when i get there but at least i wont show up by myself to a theater looking like a total loser right?

fuck my life...