Rooftop Confessionals

So G and I hung out tonight. We met up with a couple friends and went to this local coffee shops open mic night. very cool... good music and all that... she ran into her lesbian crush... they flirted... i was sort of third wheeled but whatev it was fine...

and then she and i drove around... and she texted her lesbian crush and we overanalyzed and ate gelato together... and then T2 called us and we went to G's house to lay on her roof and hang out... at first it was awkward but then it was just really comfortable and a very good conversation that revealed a lot about his and my situation... apparently he DOESNT hook up with girls much... he's done it like twice... he tends to psych himself out of relationships due to self esteem issues (hmm familiar much?) and just like a lot of other things that make me feel a lot more certain... and i talked about some of my stuff too and G talked too so it wasnt just like one person talking a lot it was like a group rooftop confessional and was SO cool and nice and comforting... anyways we ended up staying up there until 230 and then were like shit we should go
and i was "officially" out, as in i had the car and couldnt sneak back in so my mom called me like wtf caitlin where ARE you? and i was like im sorry we fell asleep and shes like WHERE? and im like kirins roof we were watching the meteor shower, which we did, and she was like GET HOME NOW RARARARARAWR! and i was like CHILL OUT! but didnt say that basically was just like ill be home soon and she told me im not allowed to be out late on weeknights anymore and im like thats cool window!

but then we climbed back downt he tree and T2 helped me and G down and we walked out to our cars and T2 said he wants to hang out again soon and like maybe we should find new hookah places to go together and like that he will find pre 10pm hang outs so i dont get in trouble and i was like meh whatev ill sneak out i have a window and he's like i figured but i thought i would offer the choice so that was nice and any awkwardness, whether or not it was just me assuming it was there or him actually being awkward, seems to have disappeared

except! fucking... he went out to the desert to watch the meteor shower last night... WITHOUT ME and i was like FUCKING FUCK FUCK YOU! but whatev... he made up for it tonight im willing to say... and like now with everything having been said i feel so much more positive about what happened, and like it's really possible to be friends from now on, and if we hook up again im okay with that too but i understand his reasons and thoughts if we dont. and i think he is in the same place like... if it happens we both understand what the other persons thoughts on the matter are and if it doesnt we are both okay with what did happen and agree to be friends so its like really nice and comforting... i didnt lose my great guy friend and doomsday conversationalist :D

anyways its 3am i need to wake up for work in 4 hours... to sleep or read? hmm ill probably read and nap for a bit and freak out when my alarm goes off ha

good thing i have my outfit planned
ps someone remind me on facebook to upload pictures cause i just went through my camera and there are some CRAZY old pics on it

night everyone :D